"It's like being in a warzone – but you've just got a shield and stick," chief inspector Zoe Kelsey said.
She was one of the officers at the centre of the Middlesbrough riot which was sparked after three girls died in a knife attack in Southport earlier this year.
Her team faced barrages of bricks, protesters tried to set them on fire and one officer suffered a heart attack.
Ch Insp Kelsey has been a police officer for more than 25 years, but she said the riots across the UK over the summer tested her faith in humanity: "We're humans too, I'm a mam, a daughter, and a wife. They didn't care about that and just thought it'd be fun to cause harm to cops."
For the first time front-line officers have spoken openly about the violence they faced at the time and trauma it has left them with.